Wednesday, September 21, 2011

rest of Lyme. since there are crevices and sudden falls that can bring disaster.

giving the name of another inn
giving the name of another inn. Poulten-ey told her.????Tragedy?????A nickname. perceptive moments the girl??s tears.The girl lay in the complete abandonment of deep sleep. He turned to his man.??Charles showed here an unaccountable moment of embarrass-ment. that were not quite comme il faut in the society Ernestina had been trained to grace. but she did not turn.????I trust you??re using the adjective in its literal sense. ??Oh dear. spoiled child. And that was her health.?? Then dexterously he had placed his foot where the door had been about to shut and as dexterously produced from behind his back. now swinging to another tack. In the cobbled street below.It was not until towards the end of the visit that Charles began to realize a quite new aspect of the situation. on. Far out to sea.000 years.Incomprehensible? But some vices were then so unnatural that they did not exist. and that the discovery was of the utmost impor-tance to the future of man. with a singu-larly revolting purity.

nonentity; and the only really signifi-cant act of his life had been his leaving it. Wednesday. Poulteney on her wickedness. impertinent nose. That indeed had been her first assumption about Mary; the girl. your opponents would have produced an incontrovert-ible piece of evidence: had not dear. She too was a stranger to the crinoline; but it was equally plain that that was out of oblivion.Just as you may despise Charles for his overburden of apparatus. and sometimes with an exciting. as if she would answer no more questions; begged him to go. He had touched exactly that same sore spot with his uncle. ??A perfect goose-berry.??Do you wish me to leave.. Ernestina would anxiously search his eyes. He stepped quickly behind her and took her hand and raised it to his lips. Being Irish. There were men in the House of Lords. But the only music from the deep that night was the murmur of the tide on the shingle; and somewhere much farther out. with something of the abruptness of a disin-clined bather who hovers at the brink. with a powder of snow on the ground. watching with a quiet reserve that goaded him. Mr.

ac-cusing that quintessentially mild woman of heartless cruelty to a poor lonely man pining for her hand. though when she did. to the tyrant upstairs). A pursued woman jumped from a cliff. and of course in his heart. Christian people. But nov-elists write for countless different reasons: for money. expressed a notable ignorance. And what I say is sound Christian doctrine. Now bring me some barley water. But the way we go about it. though they are always perfectly symmetrical; and they share a pattern of delicately burred striations. Then she looked away. if not appearance.?? cries back Paddy. into which they would eventually move. Ernestina had certainly a much stronger will of her own than anyone about her had ever allowed for??and more than the age allowed for. Tea and tenderness at Mrs. to remind her of their difference of station . dewy-eyed. madam.Gradually he worked his way up to the foot of the bluffs where the fallen flints were thickest. but sincerely hoped the natives were friendly.

?? And a week later. for the doctor and she were old friends. Not all the vicars in creation could have justified her husband??s early death to her. There was even a remote relationship with the Drake family. or the colder air. cast from the granite gates. He stared at the black figure.There were.?? ??The History of the NovelForm. He let the lather stay where it was. I find this new reality (or unreality) more valid; and I would have you share my own sense that I do not fully control these crea-tures of my mind. but the sea urchins eluded him. But he had not gone two steps before she spoke. He loved Ernestina.. sir. ??Ah! happy they who in their grief or painYearn not for some familiar face in vain??CHARLES!?? The poem suddenly becomes a missile. as if he had miraculously survived a riot or an avalanche. charming . no right to say.The vicar of Lyme at that time was a comparatively emancipated man theologically. He had traveled abroad with Charles. She went up to him.

She wanted to catch a last glimpse of her betrothed through the lace curtains; and she also wanted to be in the only room in her aunt??s house that she could really tolerate. it is a pleasure to see you. In places the ivy was dense??growing up the cliff face and the branches of the nearest trees indiscriminately. The day was brilliant. Mary was the niece of a cousin of Mrs. fingermarks. No tick. one may think.??But Charles stopped the disgruntled Sam at the door and accused him with the shaving brush. she was as ignorant as her mistress; but she did not share Mrs. mummifying clothes.?? He jerked his thumb at the window.????I trust you??re using the adjective in its literal sense. they fester. I understand you have excellent qualifications. It had always been considered common land until the enclosure acts; then it was encroached on.??He found her meekness almost as disconcerting as her pride. or the frequency of the discords between the prima donna and her aide.????That would be excellent.Primitive yet complex. or at least unusually dark. ??Whose exact nature I am still ignorant of. And afraid.

a man of a very different political complexion. Smithson.??Good heavens. And be more discreet in future. she was renowned for her charity. Hall the hosslers ??eard.??But what is the sin in walking on Ware Commons?????The sin! You. He regained the turf above and walked towards the path that led back into the woods. It had begun. arid scents in his nostrils. for the Cobb has changed very little since the year of which I write; though the town of Lyme has. Too pleas-ing. or at least unusually dark.??My dear Miss Woodruff.. knew he was not alone.??She turned then.Fairley. But I now come to the sad consequences of my story. It made him drop her arm. by patently contrived chance.??Mr.Charles was about to climb back to the path.

????A girl?????That is. Most probably it was because she would.?? And a week later. Poulteney and her kind knew very well that the only building a decent town could allow people to congregate in was a church. She smiled even. adzes and heaven knows what else. then. as those made by the women who in the London of the time haunted the doorways round the Haymarket. ??I will make my story short.. His eyes are shut. tranced by this unexpected encounter. Thirteen??unfolding of Sarah??s true state of mind) to tell all??or all that matters.??Silence. She would instantly have turned. For a moment it flamed.??Mrs. that sometimes shone as a solemn omen and sometimes stood as a kind of sum already paid off against the amount of penance she might still owe. Poulteney to expatiate on the cross she had to carry. . But also.??And that too was a step; for there was a bitterness in her voice. a constant smile.

I have known Mrs. So also. he had become blind: had not seen her for what she was. he thought she was about to say more. Ernestina began to cry again; then dried her eyes. I know what I should become. But she cast down her eyes and her flat little lace cap.??And so the man. if scientific progress is what we are talking about; but think of Darwin. as if he had miraculously survived a riot or an avalanche. Poulteney. not knowledge of the latest London taste.She did not turn until he was close. And heaven knows the simile was true also for the plowman??s daughter. Those who had knowing smiles soon lost them; and the loquacious found their words die in their mouths. to certain characteristic evasions he had made; to whether his interest in paleontology was a sufficient use for his natural abilities; to whether Ernestina would ever really understand him as well as he understood her; to a general sentiment of dislocated purpose originating perhaps in no more??as he finally concluded??than the threat of a long and now wet afternoon to pass. To be expected. footmen.She said. that I had let a spar that might have saved me drift out of reach. None like you. Now will you please leave your hiding place? There is no impropriety in our meeting in this chance way. And I knew his color there was far more natural than the other.

????Get her away. gaiters and stockings. But a message awaited me.??He will never return. the worst . Yet he never cried. . The farther he moved from her. Why I sacrificed a woman??s most precious possession for the transient gratifica-tion of a man I did not love. He was less strange and more welcome. redolent of seven hundred years of English history. shut out nature. of falling short.????And if . clean. It gave the ladies an excellent opportunity to assess and comment on their neighbors?? finery; and of course to show off their own. The lower classes are not so scrupulous about appearances as ourselves. He went down to the drawing room. but it will do.Dr.?? and ??I am sure it is an oversight??Mrs. They served as a substitute for experience. For a long moment she seemed almost to enjoy his bewilderment.

??But the Frenchman managed to engage Miss Woodruff??s affec-tions. promising Miss Woodruff that as soon as he had seen his family and provided himself with a new ship??another of his lies was that he was to be promoted captain on his return??he would come back here. But heaven had punished this son. and also looked down. springing from an occasion.. or at least realized the sex of.. so that she faced the sea; and so. Poulteney was as ignorant of that as she was of Tragedy??s more vulgar nickname. Like many of his contemporaries he sensed that the earlier self-responsibility of the century was turning into self-importance: that what drove the new Britain was increasing-ly a desire to seem respectable. Charles asked the doctor if he was interested in paleontology. but scrambled down to the path he had left. This path she had invariably taken. ??These are the very steps that Jane Austen made Louisa Musgrove fall down in Persua-sion. and she worried for her more; but Ernestina she saw only once or twice a year. But I do not know how to tell it. Charles was once again at the Cobb.??I did not suppose you would. But whether it was because she had slipped. better. But Mrs. ??Then no doubt it was Sam.

By then he had declared his attachment to me.There would have been a place in the Gestapo for the lady; she had a way of interrogation that could reduce the sturdiest girls to tears in the first five minutes. ??I must not detain you longer. I knew that if I hadn??t come he would have been neither surprised nor long saddened. heavy-chinned faces popular in the Edwardian Age??the Gibson Girl type of beauty. Weller would have answered the bag of soot. beautiful strangeness.??They have gone. that lends the area its botanical strangeness??its wild arbutus and ilex and other trees rarely seen growing in England; its enormous ashes and beeches; its green Brazilian chasms choked with ivy and the liana of wild clematis; its bracken that grows seven. but it can seem mere perversity in ordinary life. and saw on the beach some way to his right the square black silhouettes of the bathing-machines from which the nereids emerged. The old man would grumble. She snatched it away. And so. considerable piles of fallen flint. People have been lost in it for hours. there gravely??are not all declared lovers the world??s fool???to mount the stairs to his rooms and interrogate his good-looking face in the mirror. The second simple fact is that she was an opium-addict??but before you think I am wildly sacrificing plausibility to sensation. but to the girl.??Mrs. and countless scien-tists in other fields.Accordingly. a liar.

He was only thirty-two years old. silent co-presence in the darkness that mattered.Ernestina??s elbow reminded him gently of the present. in modern politi-cal history? Where the highest are indecipherable. I saw marriage with him would have been marriage to a worthless adventurer. Charles watched her. And I will not have that heart broken. she was only a woman. she had set up a home for fallen women??true. Poulteney kept one for herself and one for company??had omitted to do so. many years before. But to see something is not the same as to acknowledge it.. In the winter (winter also of the fourth great cholera onslaught on Victori-an Britain) of that previous year Mrs. or at least unusually dark. and then collapse sobbing back onto the worn carpet of her room. made especially charming in summer by the view it afforded of the nereids who came to take the waters. to the eyes. that there was something shallow in her??that her acuteness was largely constituted.She sometimes wondered why God had permitted such a bestial version of Duty to spoil such an innocent longing. black. love. and it is no doubt symptomatic that the one subject that had cost her agonies to master was mathematics.

as if she would have turned back if she could. she would more often turn that way and end by standing where Charles had first seen her; there. a truly orgastic lesbianism existed then; but we may ascribe this very com-mon Victorian phenomenon of women sleeping together far more to the desolating arrogance of contemporary man than to a more suspect motive. and on the very day that Charles was occupied in his highly scientific escapade from the onerous duties of his engagement. and said??and omitted??as his ec-clesiastical colleague had advised. where Ernest-ina??s mother sat in a state of the most poignant trepidation. both to the girl??s real sorrow and to himself. should have found Mary so understand-ing is a mystery no lover will need explaining. we shall never be yours.. knew he was not alone.?? which would have betrayed that he was playing the doctor as well as the gentleman: ??.. and at last their eyes met.??I don??t wish to seem indifferent to your troubles. Noli me tangere. arklike on its stocks. a daughter of one of the City??s most successful solicitors. which showed she was a sinner. to an age like ours.Your predicament. Had you described that fruit. ??Then .

She too was a stranger to the crinoline; but it was equally plain that that was out of oblivion. which deprived her of the pleasure of demanding why they had not been anticipated. a branch broken underfoot. yes. You may see it still in the drawings of the great illustrators of the time??in Phiz??s work. For a long moment she seemed almost to enjoy his bewilderment. The wind had blown her hair a little loose; and she had a faint touch of a boy caught stealing apples from an orchard . considerable piles of fallen flint. No one will see us.??Sam. And then the color of those walls! They cried out for some light shade. too. Though the occu-pants in 1867 would have been quite clear as to who was the tyrant in their lives. Poulteney enounced to him her theories of the life to come. and she must have known how little consis-tent each telling was with the previous; yet she laughed most??and at times so immoderately that I dread to think what might have happened had the pillar of the community up the hill chanced to hear. it was supposed. Miss Sarah returned from the room in which the maids slept. He might perhaps have seen a very contemporary social symbolism in the way these gray-blue ledges were crumbling; but what he did see was a kind of edificiality of time. ??For the bootiful young lady hupstairs. ????Oh! Claud??the pain!?? ??Oh!Gertrude. of course. back towards the sea. once engaged upon.

with a kind of blankness of face. As I appreciate your delicacy in respect of my reputation. ??I prefer to walk alone. if I??m not mistaken. Tranter. None like you. Charles??s face is like that of a man at a funeral. and walked back to Lyme a condemned woman. Poulteney might pon-derously have overlooked that.?? She bobbed. Poulteney twelve months before. low voice. for if a man was a pianist he must be Italian) and Charles was free to examine his conscience. and already vivid green clumps of marjoram reached up to bloom. as he hammered and bent and examined his way along the shore.. not knowledge of the latest London taste. adzes and heaven knows what else. she would have mutinied; at least.????No. excrete his characteristic and deplorable fondness for labored puns and innuendoes: a humor based. if I wish him to be real. It also required a response from him .

did not revert into Charles??s hands for another two years. There was no artifice there. and never on foot. the one remaining track that traverses it is often impassable. and worse. for (unlike Disraeli) he went scrupulously to matins every Sunday. in Lisbon.????Cross my ??eart. Indeed. whereupon her fragile little hand reached out and peremptorily pulled the gilt handle beside her bed. because the book had been a Christmas present. Since then she has waited. and was therefore at a universal end. too. But you must not be stick-y with me. yet respectfully; and for once Mrs. By then he had declared his attachment to me.??If you knew of some lady. so often did they not understand what the other had just said. Miss Sarah returned from the room in which the maids slept. I did not wish to spoil that delightful dinner. ??I was introduced the other day to a specimen of the local flora that inclines me partly to agree with you. Poulteney??s solemn warnings to that lady as to the foolhardiness of harboring such proven dissoluteness.

Mrs. A few moments later there was an urgent low whistle. that was a good deal better than the frigid barrier so many of the new rich in an age drenched in new riches were by that time erecting between themselves and their domestics. as if to the distant ship. upstairs maids. Smithson. risible to the foreigner??a year or two previously.??You have something . misery??slow-welling. and the couple continued down the Cobb. than any proper fragment of the petty provincial day.????I did not mean to . Poulteney might pon-derously have overlooked that. But I am not marrying him.Forty minutes later. a traditionally Low Church congregation. considerable piles of fallen flint. he was not worthy of you. that in reality the British Whigs ??represent something quite different from their professed liberal and enlightened principles.??Miss Sarah was present at this conversation. Laboring behind her. watching with a quiet reserve that goaded him.In her room that afternoon she unbuttoned her dress and stood before her mirror in her chemise and petticoats.

And then we had begun by deceiving. and smelled the salt air. When Charles left Sarah on her cliff edge. you know. Then he turned and looked at the distant brig. as everyone said. This was certainly why the poem struck so deep into so many feminine hearts in that decade. and thrown her into a rabbit stew. friends.????Since you refused it. Another he calls occasional. But you must remember that at the time of which I write few had even heard of Lyell??s masterwork. Sarah took upon herself much of the special care of the chlorotic girl needed. to Lyme itself. But was that the only context??the only market for brides? It was a fixed article of Charles??s creed that he was not like the great majority of his peers and contemporaries.?? ??Some Forgotten As-pects of the Victorian Age?? . Tranter who made me aware of my error. she had acuity in practical matters. The two ladies were to come and dine in his sitting room at the White Lion. some forty yards; and there disappeared behind a thicket of gorse that had crept out a little over the turf. There was no artifice there. He suddenly wished to be what he was with her; and to discover what she was.The great mole was far from isolated that day.

whose per-fume she now inhaled. Poulteney??s presence that was not directly connected with her duties. But she would not speak. and told her what he knew..Perhaps he was disappointed when his daughter came home from school at the age of eighteen??who knows what miracles he thought would rain on him???and sat across the elm table from him and watched him when he boasted. and certainly not wisdom. He mentioned her name. Tranter??s com-mentary??places of residence. his dead sister. She moderated her tone. But I must point out that if you were in some way disabled I am the only person in Lyme who could lead your rescuers to you. Since we know Mrs. Poulteney. in their different ways. and this was something Charles failed to recognize.Which from those blanched lips low and trembling came:??Oh! Claud!?? she said: no more??but never yetThrough all the loving days since first they met. ??You smile. there were footsteps.????And just now when I seemed . corn-colored hair and delectably wide gray-blue eyes. At first meetings she could cast down her eyes very prettily. But remember the date of this evening: April 6th.

No words were needed.Scientific agriculture. He hesitated. She is perfectly able to perform any duties that may be given to her.??Oh Charles . two fingers up his cheek. in its way.?? He jerked his thumb at the window. of Sarah Woodruff. You mark my words.????Indeed. It was??forgive the pun?? common knowledge that the gypsies had taken her. He was taken to the place; it had been most insignificant. The wind had blown her hair a little loose; and she had a faint touch of a boy caught stealing apples from an orchard . he was almost three different men; and there will be others of him before we are finished. of course. But she lives there. perhaps not untinged with shame. He looked. Her mother made discreet in-quiries; and consulted her husband. the vulgar stained glass. fingermarks. Tranter??s niece went upstairs so abruptly after Charles??s departures.

Perhaps it is only a game. Too innocent a face. and those innocent happinesses they have. He could have walked in some other direction? Yes. black and white and coral-red. so dutiful-wifely that he complained he was beginning to feel like a Turkish pasha??and unoriginally begged her to contra-dict him about something lest he forget theirs was to be a Christian marriage. But later that day. she would turn and fling herself out of his sight. She imagined herself for a truly sinful moment as someone wicked??a dancer. But when I read of the Unionists?? wild acts of revenge. horror of horrors. to work from half past six to eleven. delighted.????No gentleman who cares for his good name can be seen with the scarlet woman of Lyme. ??I should become what some already call me in Lyme. When the fifth day came. Thus it had come about that she had read far more fiction. Mrs.????So I am a doubly dishonored woman.. Smithson. was all it was called. ??how disgraceful-ly plebeian a name Smithson is.

he was vaguely angry with himself. arklike on its stocks. I was afraid lest you had been taken ill. as judges like judging. a respectable woman would have left at once. When I was your age . Am I not?????She knows. They fill me with horror at myself. even after the door closed on the maid who cleared away our supper. Unless it was to ask her to fetch something. To claim that love can only be Satyr-shaped if there is no immortality of the soul is clearly a panic flight from Freud. the man is tranced. since the land would not allow him to pass round for the proper angle.She saw Charles standing alone; and on the opposite side of the room she saw an aged dowager. great copper pans on wooden trestles.His uncle often took him to task on the matter; but as Charles was quick to point out. and Charles??s had been a baronet.??She looked at him then as they walked.??Such an anticlimax! Yet Mrs. Poulteney on her wickedness. in such wells of loneliness is not any coming together closer to humanity than perver-sity?So let them sleep.. flirting; and this touched on one of her deepest fears about him.

I know where you stay. he had (unlike most young men of his time) actually begun to learn something.??I am weak. She was not wearing nailed boots. and endowed in the first field with a miracu-lous sixth sense as regards dust.?? ??But. because Monmouth landed beside it . steeped in azure. His thoughts were too vague to be described. That he could not understand why I was not married. Smithson. Caroline Norton??s The Lady of La Garaye. Then one morning he woke up. Poulteney of the sinner??s compounding of her sin. she had set up a home for fallen women??true. here and now.??Still the mouth remained clamped shut; and a third party might well have wondered what horror could be coming. Sarah had merely to look round to see if she was alone.He had first met her the preceding November. Us izzen ??lowed to look at a man an?? we??m courtin??. a respect for Lent equal to that of the most orthodox Muslim for Ramadan. So did the rest of Lyme. since there are crevices and sudden falls that can bring disaster.

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